I sort of feel like I'm wading through a giant vat of chocolate pudding. Hot, sticky, sweaty chocolate pudding. That's how summer always feels to me, but hey, I will endure scorching sunshine and wasps flying into my bedroom if it means fall will come. There's a lyric in one of my favorite songs from this month (Maine by Noah Kahan) that goes something like this: you don't hate the summers/ you're just afraid of the space. Chocolate pudding aside, this lyric really struck a chord. I think what I dread so miserably about the next three months is all of the hazy monotony that comes with leisure. Drifting has never been something I'm particularly good at, so I'll have to create projects for myself, but that seems like a lot of work. And so my cycle of purposelessness continues; misery, realizing that misery can be easily remedied, and deciding that the easy remedy requires too much effort. Maybe I just don't like who I become during these months. Maybe i...
My dad says my blog posts are morbidly depressing, so let's make this one decidedly... not. This year, I made a solid $4.21 on Redbubble. Someone bought a phone case I designed. T'was a turtle in a puddle, holding an umbrella. It definitely sang of spring-time. I definitely drew that in five minutes before dinner. But hey, someone bought it! By someone, I mean my friend, Austyn. Knee dislocation by sneezing. I did that. Twice. A genuine feat of nature. My school started to incorporate more diverse books into English curriculum - right now, we're reading Between the World and Me by Ta-Nehisi Coates. Though I'm not impressed by the effort being put into teaching these books (see my rant from early December), I'm happy they're there. It's a start. Abby got into an amazing youth apprenticeship program; she'll probably go in for construction management, and I'm so proud of her. Outside my window at our new house, I have my very own Snow Queen and a who...
Dear friend, The Perks of Being a Wallflower is everything . I thought we'd start there. On November 17, 2017, I posted my first words on The Avocado and Me . I was barely fourteen-years-old; about six months from now, I'll be eighteen. There are some things I think you should know. First and foremost, I don't actually like avocados very much. I've had avocado toast maybe five times, and it's good, but it has never been and will never be my favorite. Semi-burnt toast with butter and blueberry jam, yes. The name just sounded nice at the time. Secondly. I am not proud of and will not reread much of what I've written here. Some of it makes me feel ashamed. This has been both a burial ground and a garden -- all of it hurts, a little. I am so grateful you are here, but know your presence is also deeply uncomfortable. I write what I feel incapable of voicing. When I write, I do not imagine you on the other end. It is strange to have people so close to the core of wh...
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